I remember when I was much younger I dreaded the feeling of hospitals, it’s always something that bothered me, the energy the “vibe” made me uneasy. I remember the first time was seeing my grandma in a room and I felt sad, because I used to see this woman who was active and moving around and cooking to suddenly bed ridden. It was tough. Now that I’ve gotten older, I’ve been to hospital rooms for good and bad occasions now I understand death, I understand life, hospitals are a place of life and death and how two incredible life events happens simultaneously in mere seconds of each other. Life is amazing sometimes, it reminds you of the endless possibilities that are out there and well death reminds you that in the end all of those materialistic things doesn’t mean anything and makes you wonder if there’s something after death.

August was one heck of a month. Started off with a wine mixer at my friend's Randall's place and then I started a tech sales program, which wasn't for me. Started working again and ended up going camping for my first time in ages. Now it's finishing up with birthdays and as I reflect on it momentarily I'm really grateful for the experiences I've had so far, it could be worse but I'm glad it isn't. Time heals all wounds, eventually.

God damn... it creeps up on you out of no where. Doubt starts to creep in, I’m inside my head and I start to question everything.

Been ages since I heard this song, literally made me cry the first time listening to it again, though this cover is the current mood.

Now that I've been back with civilization again, I do miss the quietness that nature gives you. The solitude is truly something we as humans need to have in order to thrive. This lesson is something that "Digital Minimalism" talks about and now I understand it personally. We need to quiet outside stimulus in order to listen to ourselves, our thoughts and body. You know what's best for you and finding a place to eliminate any outside input is important for your own well being. Coming back to reality I've realized how much people use their phones / technology to disconnect from the human connection, sometimes it get easier with the aide of alcohol for example, but that shouldn't always be the case IMO. Think about your screen time, think about the apps your using, are you just passively scrolling or are you using it with intention?